"Freaky sunday"

but befour that, i'm talking about my book, not my blog okeyh :)

I know it has not escaped your notice that I always carry a ring-bound notebook and a pen.You probably think, “What the heck does that chick write about? haha then mula lah kau pun nak ambil buku aku and OMG, it would be so great if I knew it, kan,kan,kan???

 

   ...because my diary is basically my personal therapist...
 
My diary is the best therapist. I can tell it absolutely everything, seghala-galanya tanpa segan dan silu.  and I don’t have to fear criticism (which would make me feel crappy),  Idan yang penting  it can’t pass judgment on me. I don’t know if human therapists actually give you kritik baek punya!

Last word: 
boleh tak kau jangan sibuk-sibuk baca diari aku?? urh! aku panas betul bila ada orang cuba-cuba nak baca diari aku then mula lah nak mengata lah.. nak cakap-cakap bende yang aku tak suke! haih!
manusia-manusia kan.. tak lekang dari menyebok!

please lah!

get your own life!

tensi

Fuhh!! (belum apa-apa dah mengeluh)

kerje sangat memenatkan.. Betul la kata sesetengah manusia, alam kerja memang tak sama dengan alam belajar. Ada yang kata alam belajar senang dari alam kerja.Tapi pada aku la, aku tak rasa belajar tu senang.

aku ingat semalam nak update Blog tapi hari ni jela aku update sebab semalam tak sempat. balik-balik terus cari kerusi nak duduk.. berdiri bukan main lama 

know what, i have an awkward issue in dealing with mesin percetakkan, tak kira lah printer mesin fotostat fax of course, binding dan lain lain mesin yang guna kertas la. aku akan jadi macam panik bila berurusan dengan mesin mesin yang sedemikian.

Hari ni macam biasa, masuk kerja pukul 4 balik pukul 10 malam.  tak la tensi sangat kerja.Tapi takde la sampai tak tensi langsung.

kalau rehat selalu pukul 5, kalau tak keluar pon haaa aku duduk lah mencangkung atau bersila di bawah. kalau tidak pon layan lah  customer  fotostat la..itu la..ini la..Mana cukup tangan.Kadang-kadang TERblur sikit sebab kepala aku dah serabut.Kalau duit tu dah penuh la satu bakul.Sampai terkeluar.

tapi alhamdulillah kali pertama kerja, kali pertama dapat pengalaman dan kali pertama dapat gaji, semuanya alhamdulilla..
tak ada yang kurang.

segala-galanya telah berubah

Pahit sungguh hari berlalu, sungguh pahit.. nak telan pun kelat rasanya.. urh! sumpah aku sendiri tak paham dengan perasaan sendiri.. penat aku berlari.. aku bukan lari dari masalah tetapi aku lari untuk tenang kan fikiran.

tak ada jalan lain lagi kah untuk aku hilang kan rasa menyesal? rasa sedih? rasa...

apa lagi aku mahu dari dia sebenarnya? tak cukup lagi kah mia apa kau dah buat? apa aku dah buat? aku buntu, naza dan diana saja yang memahami. ape nie? aduh! aku sendiri tak paham.. kalau bukan mereka lah.. entah apa aku dah buat.. mungkin dah terbaring dekat hospitak.. hahaha sebab ambil 'overdoss' no,no,no aku masih waras..tapi bila sampai saja waktu malam kenapa aku macam gila..

Everything has changed Feel the heat

I'm burning deep inside and i Feel the beat Of my heart

you my friends always here by my side, thank's 

14/2/11

Wow. This is my first time drawing like this? Perfect an? Hahaha. Its perfect for me cause I dun even know how to draw and woots. Finally my drawing menjadi? Hahaha. Im bored. No one pay me. How sad is that? Sigh.

I open paint and I randomly draw this.And wtheck, KLCC? Hahaha. Yeah, I really have no idea what to draw. So, I randomly draw KLCC beside there. Hahahaha. Lame. Sigh.

Gahhh. I hate Valentine's day =(

Can we skip the 14th February? The first fact is I know im gonna be alone and empty and and pathetic. Sigh. Second fact is I never received any special gift or flowers from the loved ones. Previously, I dun even bother bout Valentine's day but I dunno why, right now.. 

I Don't Care What You Think of Me

I honestly do not care what you or anyone thinks of me. 

If you havre a problem with me, face me or just leave!

I won't force you to be around me. 

If you like me for me, fine, stay! I won't force you to leave. 

Wether your opinion of me is high or low, it doesn't matter. What matters is the fact that I like myself. 

So for everyone who feels the same, kudos! For those who hate or like them, bravo! :))

massage for you and you and you! and yess you!

Dear diary,

Tell her how you admire her. Always tell her you love her at all times, but never when your unsure yourself. When she’s upset hold her tight. Pick her over all the other girls you hang out with. Play with her hair, pick her up, tickle her and wrestle with her. Just talk to her, tell her jokes. Bring her flowers just because. Hold her hand and run, just to hold her hand. Throw pebbles at her window at night. Let her fall asleep in your arms.

I'm so down right now. I need someone to talk to who can hear my crap. Someone who can stay up for me. Someone who can cheer me up? Are you the one that im looking for? Sigh. My heart is fragile and i'm sensitive sometimes.

A message for you and YOU!

You. You boleh tak jangan bagi I serabut? Cukuplah. I had enough. Please?

And for you, we known each other quite long kan? Apa kata we exchange place, I jadi you, and you jadi me, so if I ask you the same question, how do you feel? Happy? Angry? Jealousy? Mad? Or you wanna kill me?

Im controlling myself now. Inhale. Exhale :'((

Sing to her no matter how awful you sound. Get her mad at you and then kiss her. Push her on swings. Tell her she looks beautiful. When she’s sad stay on the phone with her, even if she’s not saying anything. Look into her eyes and smile. Kiss her on the forehead. Slow dance with her even if there is no music. Kiss her in the rain. But most of all, love her with everything you have.

Gahhh. Congratulations. You just ruined my mood. Here, a gold medal for you. Peace (middle finger)

Siapa kata

air yang dipukul

takkan terpercik ke muka?

Siapa kata

tangkai yang dilentur

takkan melibas semula?

Siapa kata

cili yang ditumbuk

takkan memedihkan mata?

sekadar luahan perasaan

Dulu… I am a type of person who DONT do BLOGGING. I DO have a Blogspot account back then, but rarely update my blog. The reasons? Bz. Malas. Nothing to share. Bile dah masuk year 2010 tahun lepas ,

tetibe gatal nak buat blog. Haha. “New Year New Blog” maaa! Now I really enjoy blogging (Mungkin sebab bosan gila dok umah, and byk masa terluang). Every time I want to create a new post, I feel like my fingers are moving faster than my brain. Laju je menaip! Haha! Dulu bila baca blog orang, I was like “Ishhh.. Panjangya post minah/mamat ni. Byk ideas and thoughts dia. Rajin btol dia taip..” Skrg saya pulak =.=’ Sometimes I feel like blogging is like my therapy. Is this how therapy feels like??! walla !!

Have u ever heard a quotes saying, “If u want people to RESPECT u, u must RESPECT them first” or.. something like that?

Since I read about that quotes, saya terus berpegang pada prinsip itu. Dan betul, bila kita hormat seseorang, when we being nice with him/her, in the end he/she will respect us or treat us nicely. Berani cakap camni sebab penah rasa dan lalui =) Sbb penah terjadi dengan kawan-kawan, dengan cikgu2, sedara mara dan jugak dgn my  frienemy (Now we become very close like sisters. Alhamdulillah) who?? hahahha adelah >,<''

Tapi.. Penah jugak jadi the other way around.

like when Kita respect org tu. Kita trying to be nice dgn dia.kan, You know - cakap elok2, buat benda yang dia suka, gembirakan hati dia, tolong dia bila dia tengah susah, bagi hadiah or card kat dia (birthday), giving him/her motivation when he/she was down or having troubles. 

Tapi lain pulak dia balas kat kita. Bila kita tengah down, bila motivation kite was at the lowest level, all yang dia tahu is criticized u and judged u. Cakap itu ini. RESPECT? Mmg HARAM ah! Mmg takde sense of respect langsung. Jauh lagi nak treat kita nicely.

 

I am just a normal homo-sapien, of course I made mistakes. There are times I got screwed up. I have a dream, a really BIG dream. 

Then I came up with a plan. Kita hanya merancang, tapi Yang Maha Esa yang menentukannya. Saya percaya bahawa setiap orang telah ditetapkan rezeki masing-masing oleh Allah SWT. Cumanya persoalannya skrg rezeki kita tu - Banyak atau sedikit? Cepat atau lambat? Alhamdullillah, rezeki anda lagi murah dari saya. 

Saya pon bangga dan tumpang gembira melihat di mana anda berdiri sekarang. Saya sedar siapa saya. Sebab masa saya dulu, saya tak dpt peluang yang macam awak dapat.

Tapi janganlah sebab kejayaan yang awk kecapi skrg, dan sbb kat mana awak berdiri skrg, awak jadi lupa diri. Langsung tak hormat kat saya. Pandang saya pon sebelah mata, macam laa saya ni hina sgt. Awk kena ingat. “Life is like a wheel, sometimes we are up, sometimes we are down” and.. sometimes the grass isn’t greener.. 

Cuba anda tanya kat diri awk tu balik? Awk tu sentiasa di atas ke? Awk tu perfect sangat ke? Dah cukup bagus eh? Believe in karma, “What goes around comes around..” =.='' eyhh melebih pulak saya nie ..

Entahlah.. Its hard to satisfy and please everyone. yeah memang betul! 

Manusia nih tak penah puas hati kan? Kadang2 rasa buang masa je respect/treat org tu nicely, tapi ni yang dia balas kat kita? Penat je jaga hati orang, takot nanti tersalah cakap dia sedih ke, dia terasa ke. Tapi orang takde pulak nak jaga hati kita?

Life is cruel! REAL life is cruel!! 

Setiap yang berlaku ada hikmahnya. Saya bersyukur sangat sebab mempunyai BFF yang sgt memahami saya dan be there for me when I need them MOST.  When I really need “a shoulder to cry on”, they always be there for me. Thanks!!! =)

P/S :  Hari ni saya hanya nak ketawa je 24/7, so better tgk cite “Valentine’s Day”.

Layan gile lirik lagu Welcome to My Life - Simple Plan.

“Do you wanna be somebody else?

Are you sick of feeling so left out?

Are you desperate to find something more

Before your life is over?

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?

Are you sick of everyone around?

With the big fake smiles and stupid lies

Well deep inside you’re bleeding..”

notes

I want ur love and I want ur revenge.. 

I want ur love I dont wanna be friends.. 

GAGA is a GENIUSSS! XD

 

 

Eeeee Yuukkkssss

 

 

 Im Sick Of Dealing With Silly Immature Teenagers Like You